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HeartOfZeus aint leaving

It’s early. The time is 04:12 in the morning, and I am writing to you from my apartment. There is a lot going on with this blog right now, and so sometimes it is here, and sometimes it is not. I am moving my sites over to a new server at SiteGround, and I am hoping to have all three of my websites up and running by the end of next weekend [July 7th]. Looking forward to it! I’m really fucking excited. I just want to get laid and make money, and this is the tipping point.

Chris

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The Switchup

I often find myself wondering what I should do next, and today is none different. Dare I say I am thinking of bending my plans to the graces of someone else? It is certainly possible. Patience must be applied.

I met this girl last night, and she’s still asleep, but I want to hangout with her again, and there inlies the problem: We’re going to be in two different cities. I did manage to find a hostel bed in Hoi An for 130k, but I just don’t know if this is where I want to stay tonight! Right now the plan is to return to Da Nang about 17:30 and then move right back into the hostel I was at for 20 days. The difference is that this time, my plan is to catch the train to Saigon the following day. But wait! There’s more.

What if the girl wants to hangout? Welllll shit, then I guess I should be sticking around. When she awakes I am going to talk to her about it…so it’s either catch the train to Saigon, or keep my room in Da Nang and come down in a grab and spend the day hanging out with her. I actually gave it some significant thought. I will be in Vietnam for another three weeks. That’s enough time to get to know someone, without question. At the same time I don’t think I want to stay in Da Nang another three weeks! I could come and chill in Hoi An, but first of all it’s more expensive than Da Nang, and second…it’s not as much of my scene as Da Nang.

All of this said, transportation between the two towns in 100k with a Grab Bike, and 300k with a Grab Car, which really isn’t that bad. It’s not something I want to do everyday…but I could do it several times before it impedes my progress. In truth…I’ve spent quite a lot of money since my arrival, and I forsure won’t be able to keep that up. At this rate I’ll arrive in San Francisco with almost nothing, and that is not the come back I need to make! If I want to show up with $420 [at least] in the bank, then I need to be a little more cautious of how I spend my money the rest of my time in Vietnam.

Other problems? In fact I was just talking to Will about this last night. When you try and follow someone, or bend your plans to accommodate someone else’s life, you almost always end up unhappy. Ahh! So the slick move? See is this girl can meet me in Da Nang, and we can chill out there for the day. That would at least be a good start.

The reason I sat down to write is because I have nothing to do, and a lot of decisions to make. Oh, I suppose it’s worth mentioning that Will is heading to Da Nang tonight, so we were planning to split the car [I need a car with all my stuff]. If I hadn’t run into him again this morning? I was actually prepared to go rent a room across town…but I actually like the idea of commuting much better. In fact! If I took the bus it’s only a measly 20k, which means I could stay in Da Nang and come down here for the rest of my trip and it wouldn’t break the bank lol. I don’t think I would get to much done on the bus, but I would do my best practice being efficient.

Okay. That’s all I got. I guess I am going to edit and post this now, otherwise it will get lost to the abyss of documents. I will probably talk to you next from Da Nang, but at this point anything is possible.
Chris

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Day 19 in Da Nang. Poof.

I have made a spreadsheet of information relating to asmr, and I have reorganized all the files in my Google drive and on my computer. I still have not made a proper plan for going to Hoi An, but I might leave this afternoon still.I have everything I need at my hostel, I just jump in a cab and go! But idk. I feel rooted to Da Nang at the moment, so who knows. I could just fucking fly to hcmc if I wanted, and strictly dominate the two cities [I’ve visited].

The espresso this morning was good. I forgot to order a double shot…but it seemed the same nonetheless. After I finish this I will return to my hostel and likely pack my things together, and then I will probably sit around avoiding a decision for a while before I finally go to Hoi An. I am excited. I think Hoi An will be a nice city, and even if I only spend a couple of day there I think I will enjoy myself. Then I will either take a longg bus ride to the next city, or I come back to Da Nang and fly to Saigon. Both are good options.

I don’t have much to say today…in fact, that’s it! So peace for now, and I’ll catch you soon. Peace!

 

Chris

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Day 16 in Da Nang. A Fresh Look.

Today, I am just going to open a word document and let whatever fly. I am messaging Kalen at this very moment. It looks like he keep deleting what he’s saying and starting over. We shall see how long the message is. It’s a hot day. My coconut iced coffee just arrived. It is pretty good.

I just found out my friend Casey switched jobs. He always bogging down on life, when he should be speeding up! Oh well. He’s still working. I have a weird thing going on with my eye today. Kind of like seeing sun spots…but more psychedelic than that. Man, talking to Kalen I’m super excited to be back in sf. The possibilities I have are endless. I’ve come to realize how great a life could be here in Vietnam, especially in Da Nang. I just want something different right now. Would it fulfill my exact terms and conditions of life to settle into teaching English in Da Nang while I write a city blog in my free time? YES, that would fulfill my exact requirements! So why am I going home? I suppose I just feel called there. I feel like going back to SF is going to open some doors up to me that I just wouldn’t have access to if I stayed here.

I just smoked a fucking cigarette. Man! I put it out not even 10 seconds ago, and I am already disappointed in myself. Once I leave the city I’m certainly not going to smoke anymore. I was feeling good, and then I fucked it all up with that cig. Okay, I think I am being a little hard on myself. I know I am not going back to smoking, it’s just going to end up being a Da Nang thing, but still… At first it seems like a good idea, but then I smoke one and I feel a little tired. Not the move.

I am messaging Futura4200 on Instagram some questions I have about opening a forum website. If you have never heard of the Futura blog, I suggest you check it out. I don’t follow his website as much as I follow his IG, but just to be following what the guy does is to be learning from him. The time is 10:42 in Da Nang, and after that cigarette fiasco I am not feeling as bout it-bout it as I was 10 minutes ago lol. Now I will return to my hostel…cool out for a little bit, and then maybe venture back out into the world. It’s a hot day in Vietnam, but I am getting used to that. Only gonna get hotter as I go south! Okay, peace from H-Coffee.

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I am back at my hostel, and I had just ordered a smoothie and had begun to write a letter to tarotreaderasmr, when a young lady approached me selling peanuts. She said it was a donation for her school, and the price was about the same as the ones I had seen at the store so I bought some peanuts from the lady. She also had cashews and some chicken fry things, but I feel in a peanuts mood. Well anyway, I just thought I’d give a little update before I forget about the peanuts lady. I am going to write my letter now, and then probably continue this. I need to plan my trip to Hoi An [forreal forreal]. I’m gonna get stuck in this fucking city. Oh! I can’t forget to tell you about the guy I met from Colorado making $1000 per video shooting music videos, and he lives in Da Nang.

Okay, I am back. The time is 13:06 now. Writing that letter probably took 30 minutes, and I already sent it out. Woo! To getting work done. I am pretty set on an asmr blog. I keep talking myself out of it: “it’s already being done,” “there aren’t enough readers,” “people only watch asmr, they don’t read about it,” but you know what? I am ready to take a risk. I have visited other asmr blogs and websites, and I don’t think they are putting in as much elbow grease as I am going to put in. I don’t really see much competition in the field, honestly. What is going to separate me from the other asmr blogs? My approach to marketing, and the high quality content I will be continually producing. I am already wondering where I can get writers for this project. It matters a lot to me that quality is maintained on my websites, relative to what is expected of said site, and for that reason I will hold heavy scrutiny over who I allow to write for my new asmr blog. Maybe SF will be the place I find writers. Maybe I won’t even find them in the United States.

I know what my next move has to be though? Save Money. That is what made it so easy to buy a ticket back to SF; I know my goal. It is true, now that I think about it, that I could have probably saved more money teaching English out here in Vietnam. Also however, I think I can accomplish more in SF as I will be surrounded by successful, motivating individuals in my field. There are bloggers here in Da Nang, and that pass through Vietnam, but it’s not the same as what I am trying to do.

While I stack the money, I also need to be writing. I need to write 2 or 3 asmr articles a day, and I need to make as many connections in the community as possible. I need to maintain focus, and I will succeed. The first steps were these blog posts [the recent ones, basically so I can keep track of my journey, and hold myself accountable], and sending out that email to tarotreaderasmr. I am interested to see what she replies with on the topic.

I really am running out of things to do in Da Nang. We know I should just be sitting and writing, but all I do is sit around, period! I really feel that way. It’s such a lax city. In the next two days I really should head out to Hoi An. I can catch a grab in the morning and be there in 45 minutes. I will find a hostel in Hoi An and a coffee shop near it, and I will continue working on this project with a fresh mind.

The time is 13:21 now, and I should really just go to the beach. I don’t feel like the beach though. It’s very hot, and with the sun I can’t stay out there long or I get crispy. I am excited to see what HCMC is like. I might still try and get some shirts printed while I am there…but maybe not. I might just save all my efforts for when I get home. I can’t believe I’ve been here for two weeks and never rented a motorbike. I still can’t ride a motorbike! I would think about riding a motorbike up the Hivan Pass, but I don’t feel I am up to the task. Learning to ride the bike, and then doing the pass, only to take a bus back down south anyway [probably]. I will go to Hoi An, and then just take a bus to another close city. I might try to travel through a town called Plieku, but we shall see how out of the way it is for me. I don’t want to get to HCMC too early though, and then all the sudden I’m bored and I still have two weeks before my flight. April 12th…it will come. Then it’s back to the normal job, and the normal life out in San Francisco.

I’ve realized I need to start by compiling a list of all the ASMR artists I can find, that way I have at least a general idea of what I am working with as a whole. What will be blog do? Talk about who has new videos so you can find all your asmr in one place? Yeah probably that. Plus more. Interviews, and linking other news that talks about asmr. Mhm, I think I’m on to something here.

Okay, the list is fucking huge. I just looked up “asmr artists a-z” on Google, and I was brought to a reddit page with the top 100 artists [idk if they are really the top 100 though]. I went through one of my YouTube accounts and unsubscribed to everyone that isn’t an asmrtist, and I am going to follow everyone on the list from reddit. Then I am going to go through and follow more and more artists until I think I have followed everyone I need. Then I am going to make an information sheet of how to contact the ones I believe would be best equipped to work with my project, and I am going to go down the list. At this point I will have enough to start a daily video section [about new videos] on my blog, but I probably won’t be ready to go live as I’ll want to compile more written content. Once I have my list, I am going to start writing articles involving the artists from the list, since I’ll have a base to look through now. Then I work on printing some shirts, and seeing if I can get some artists to wear the shirts. Boom! My computer is going to die so I need to find a plug.

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The time is now 16:29. I let my computer charge in my room for a while, while I played chess and ate a sandwich from Bros Kafe next door. It was a pretty good sandwich, but I need to start considering my health. The sandwich had a lot of cheese, and over all I’ve just been eating a lot of greasy and cheesy food here in Da Nang.

I’ve realize it’s all work from this point out. It feels like I have nothing to do, but there is tons of work to be done! I gotta get this blog rolling. This is going to be tough. I should make myself a schedule and an agenda, so I am accomplishing tasks, and so I can keep track of how much I get done. Then I can start to figure out logistics and stuff. I just put a video on my Instagram story asking people if they want to get involved with this. I wouldn’t shy away from some help. I am going to need help with WordPress, and graphic design, and writing. I might need to hire someone who has worked for a blog before, or something like that. I think this is stuff I can worry about when I get back to San Francisco.

Whew. I am losing my mind again. When I get too far out, I get a little emotional about things. I really want to succeed on this one, that’s all I know. I am picturing being able to go on vacation with my grandpa; actually showing him I am doing something with my life. My mother too, I should talk to her, it’s been a few weeks. I should let her know I’m coming back! I look forward to hanging out with my family and not being a kid anymore. Having the kind of financial independence that would allow me to invite the family over to my house… Right now I don’t own a house, but that is my goal. In fact, one of my driving goals in life is this: I want to own four pieces of property at the end of my life. I recently changed from the “I just want to be rich” mindset, to the “I need realistic goals” mindset, and I decided owning four piece of property by the end of my life is a good goal to have. If I have that goal now, is it not likely I will maintain my sanity and my certainty when money comes to me? Also, is it not true that a goal will help set the future in motion, and that a goal of four properties is not an unreasonable life goal? Real estate seems like the real deal, and I just want to have a business, that I can love because it will take awhile to get to the real estate level, that helps take me to that level. Then I can watch the business go on for my lifetime, and see what becomes of it. I will have time to write and live in leisure. It could be the good life by my 30’s or 40’s!

listening to Tai Lopez on YT has inspired me to think outside the box. He talks over and over again about starting a social media marketing company. In this one elongated advertisement I saw of his, he was practically giving away the secret formula. He went to the website of a restaurant in LA, and he cited all the things wrong with it. Now, he got paid to use their site as an example, but as I was watching this video I was thinking “I agree with the flaws he is pointing out. I guess all the old-time business owners aren’t 100% caught up with the times. I think I could do what Tai is doing. I think any millennial with practical business sense and a base education can look at a website and determine things about it that are not helping viewership.” Tai was literally just going through this website and pointing things out, and I guess if I took time to assess a website, I could find things wrong with a great number of websites for a great number of restaurants in my home town. “Some of these places might actually pay me to help straighten everything out,” and then it hit me. Tai’s right! An smma [social media marketing agency] is the way to go for the millennial who is really hungry to get out of the struggle. Those guys who would have become great car salesmen if this was the 80’s? Those guys probably rule at running an smma. It’s getting out there and meeting the people, and actually getting a long list of people you have contacted. It’s not the easiest thing in the world, but with the initial money you making doing an smma, you can move into a different sector, and of course Tai thinks real estate. Boom. That’s what I want to do. Except I am not going to run an smma, I am going to run a blog, and I am going to apply some good business principles to running the blog from the get-go. Do you see what I am saying? If I can dismantle a website…I can build one, or at least pay to have one built [I built my current site, but I might not be able to keep up if I try to build the new site to new standards]. I can use what I know about advertising! I tell random people I meet to advertise themselves on IG all the time, because they have a service or own a businesses or whathaveyou. I am hungry ladies and gents! and I am going to get myself a bite of the action, and I am going to make it in an industry I love being a part of, and that is asmr. The blog might not go off without any hitches, but if I stick with it I know I will succeed. This article is my reminder to myself that I need to see this one through; that I have too many ideas that will all work, I just need to choose one, and there is a reason I am choosing asmr. I will always be listening to it, and if I don’t try to build a blog about it in my lifetime, I know I will look back later and feel extinguished.

Chris

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New Fame LLC Concert, Da Nang day 4

This is the greatest town I have been to in my entire life. Who woulda thunk I’d travel almost all the way around the world and end up having the best time of my life in Vietnam! I seriously never could have guessed that life would take this unexpected turn. I’m in the part of the city called My An, and although I think the whole city is lit, this neighborhood is where it’s at. In all seriousness I wouldn’t be surprised if this neighborhood becomes some epicenter of a renaissance movement, I am that impressed with the attitudes of these local folks.

Last night I attended a hip-hop show, and one of the reasons I attended (because normally I just sit at home) was because they were having a freestyle rap cipher before the show, and if you know me then you know I like to rap. So I went. Boy oh boy…it was literally a life altering experience. At first I was unsure of how sizable the crowd would be, but it was massive! We’re talking a bar with only outdoor seating, and there was at least 50 people packed in there, maybe there was 80! Maybe people were standing. Upon my arrival I went and greeted the band, since I was really there to check them out. It’s odd how when you travel, supporting a group from America is supporting your local talent. I’ll have you know that I did spit some raps, and some other folks came up to spit some raps too. It was a pretty successful cipher forsure, and I am happy I went to the show. The name of the band is New Fame LLC, and the two members are Adrian and Cruz, presuming I have the spelling right, my memory is serving me, and I heard correctly over the music lol. Their next stop is SXSW, so if you are in Texas for South By South West Music Festival, look for New Fame LLC and check their show out, but they will be touring America all year. It was really bumping.

So this duo from America brought all these people together, and it made for the most agronomic environment and it was very relaxing and I felt right at home. If I was a man with more direction, I might consider becoming a tour manager for sending bands through Vietnam. Even if a group just came to Da Nang and set up shop playing shows here for 3 months, they would make a serious impact on the global community. As a location that attracted both nomadex (I’ve combined Digital Nomad and Expat, and at the same time I’ve made it a plurale tantum. FWM) and tourists from all around the globe, it leaves little to the imagination the kind of impact a great band with unwavering confidence could leave upon a neighborhood like this.

Whew! I am quite excited about the prospects of this place. I can’t believe that I am really thinking of spending 6 months or more here. but you know what? It all rides on a demo I have tomorrow at 11 AM, and for that reason I must put this article to wrap and move onto planning a lesson, followed by going to get a SIM card. It’s going to be a good day today, and tomorrow, no matter what happens with this lesson. Ugh. Decisions, decisions! Whatever shall I do!

Chris

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Day 3 in Da Nang (43 Coffee Factory)

I am at 43 Coffee Roastery. Whew! Big day already. I awoke and brushed my teeth, and then I hoofed it over to the Banh Mi sandwich shop I have been frequenting. I ate an egg sandwich and met a nice gentleman from South Carolina and a lady from China, the western side. The lady approached me first and asked if I was Jewish, citing that I have a large beard. This is far from a new thing for me, and I am quite honored to be considered among the beard elite. After she was chatting me up (in pretty good English) for a minute, I turned around to find a older gentleman from the good ole USA standing right behind me; NFL hat and all. I talked to him for a bit, and he told me about his travels in China, and he also happened to know a bit about the Bay Bridge because apparently he was included on the construction. The Bay Bridge was built in China and shipped over…maybe I knew that. He also told me about a massive earth quake in China in 2008. Sad story really.

My friends Greta and Nora just walked into the coffee shop I am at, and walked directly out the side door. I wonder if they know I saw them. Overall it was a rather confusing thing to watch, and being as I am in the upstairs seating area I saw it in one smooth motion. Today I ordered a coffee, and a brownie. Good stuff. The people at this shop take the coffee very seriously, and I can appreciate that. In two days time I have a demo scheduled for teaching English. It was be a trip and a half if I got accepted into the position. I would really like this town…and I would be here for like 6 months! Crazy af. That would be a life changer. Okay. The people are all here now, so I am going to go join them. I guess…I am just going to post this now and do more later. Peace!

Chris

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Day 2 in Danang (43 Coffee, and H Coffee)

43 Coffee

It is my second day full day in Vietnam, and I am writing to you from H-Coffee in the My An district of Da Nang. Dare I say I will spend all of my time in this one little area of the city? I seriously love it, and I am certain I could spend a significant amount of time here, the only question that remains is: when should I be purchasing a plane ticket for, because then I am forreal locked into staying. Right now the cheapest ticket is for May 17th, and honestly everything before that date has risen significantly. I was excited to get home, and now I feel like ‘who wouldn’t want to spend three months living at the beach?’

H-Coffee

I am falling into a routine. I wake up at my hostel, and I walk to get a Banh Mi sandwich at this local spot I’ve found, and that runs me about 15k Dong, which is like sixty-six cents probably. Maybe it’s 70 cents. I think 23,000 Dong is $1. After I get my sandwich I go and grab a coffee. The coffee (at least in this part of the city) is extremely well made from what I’ve seen. Yesterday I went to 43 Coffee Roastery, which was super lux and lavish. It has a large glass wall at the front letting in loads of light, and 50’s music coming at a perfect volume out of the speakers. For individuals who take their coffee, and their atmosphere seriously, 43 Coffee is the place.  I will certainly be back, but not every day because the coffee runs 60k, and that means it’s probably the most expensive place in the neighborhood.

Today I am at H Coffee (as I have stated), and the Americano is only 20k, which doesn’t seem like a bad price. The coffee is not as bitter as I would prefer, but it is certainly fresh; none of that NesCafe bullshit that I ran the chance of receiving in Thailand and Laos. I am under the impression I have the Koreans to thank for this, because I read online Koreans take their coffee pretty seriously, and as a large portion of the tourists are Korean I believe the coffee scene has developed, at least in part, because of their thirst for the stuff. Cool. I’m a thirsty man myself.

Every day I am going to try a new coffee shop, and I will write to you from the different coffee shops. I am going to make a real effort not to falter this act, as I know I will really appreciate it in the future. I am also considering getting a group together while I am here, but I know not what kind of group yet. Most of the individuals here are probably more…ritzy than myself. I believe it is a slightly more sophisticated, and well-off expat community than, where as I have like one paychecks worth of savings which I am trying to stretch lol. So maybe the common interest barrier will be stern and difficult to breach. Nevertheless, I intend to try making as many friends as possible while I am here. I really like Da Nang. Not to get ahead of myself…as I usually do…but I could see making Da Nang my lifelong travel destination. Every time I need a break from San Francisco or just the Western Hemisphere, I could see myself coming here. Let’s not forget I spent a month in Kolkata as well, and I love it there. I loved the price, and the food, and the people. This place though? Well this place feels like home to me.

Chris

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In The Zone

Today was a dope day. I arrived in Da Nang, Vietnam yesterday, and I am feeling hella good. I can’t even lie about it. Vietnam is pretty oh my god the roof on my hostel just retracted  cool. That’s literally what happened in real time, but it’s also an accurate description of how cool Vietnam is. I wonder how difficult it would be to learn Vietnamese. Probably viciously hard for me, but they use the same alphabet. The letters just sound different.

On a different type of thing, I am considering teaching English here, but I suppose it starts with looking around about a job. I am being told that teaching English will be easy for me, and so I am tempted to give it a shot. I will certainly update if that come to fruition. Otherwise I’ll be buying a plane ticket and will soon have a date of arrival. Unless I teach…I do however think giving college a shot might be the move for me, so I don’t want to lock myself into Vietnam. I suppose teaching would actually be pretty good experience though. Damn, I wish I had applied for residency of California before I left. I bet I could have gained residency already, and if I can’t get into the school I might just wait and work for a year while saving money in the city. Have we talked about all this? I feel like we might have.

I think I’ll go to the beach again tomorrow.

Chris

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It’s Teachers Day, and all you get is this DATA-T article.

There are two types of people in the world. The dead, and the living. Which are you?

I am writing to you from Data T Cafe in Chiang Mai, Thailand. The cappuccino Jo and I split yesterday was splendid, and so we have made our return. This morning we have ordered two steamed rice with fried egg, a side of spicy Chinese pickle, a Cappuccino, and an Americano. Actually make that two Cappuccino and two Americano. We have probably been here over one hour already. We arrived and ordered, and I managed to type the top of this page quickly before initiating a deep conversation with the gentleman who owns the place. I have not determined if he is here with his wife or not, but it is possible. The gentleman is from Taiwan, spent eight years in Atlanta, returned to Taiwan, worked in China to help minimize air pollution, and has now retired to Chiang Mai.

Today is no different than any other day I have spent traveling, except that I am going to make every effort to force a difference today. I have been writing this blog for quite some time now, and have also grown into making YouTube videos. I can’t lie about it, these outlets for my creative passion make me happy. They make me happy with impunity, and when I first started writing I wanted to make money with my talents, but now I am going to make money with my talents. I have long been speaking to Jo about starting a YouTube channel together, perhaps one where we focus on education, or travel; many things to be talked about in this globalizing world we inhabit, and no better time to start than now! I have decided I want to move onto the next step, and by default Jo is coming with me. It’s a must. I long thought that we would come to some sort of glorious conclusion together, where passion would spark a move into profit, but I no longer feel that way. We are going to leap. I am taking my father as well…

As I write this, I can’t actually say I have a plan, but I can say I have focus. I have learned much while operating this blog. I have also become comfortable with “The best camera is the one you already have.” The tools Jo and I have are miniscule in comparison to the tools our parents have given us, and so with practice and hardwork, I sternly believe we will find ourselves living the life of profitable digital nomads. After we put in the initial work of…whatever is about to happen, we will be able to pursue our passions with vigor, unafflicted by the amount of money we have. Money will always effect and come into play. One should not assume that if they do what they love forever they will find success, but it is fair to say that when vigilance is maintained, the former is true. So today is the day! Planning is ahead. Hardwork is ahead. Frustration is ahead. However these tasks will not amount to abyss, they will amount to bountiful harvest. HeartOfZeus is just telling the story of Chris Buckley. I am glad to have to have you here with me. Let’s pray I don’t fuck this up.

Chris

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Separate Beds In The Dorm

It’s difficult for me to write while I am listening to music with lyrics. Same with reading, or really doing any sort of work. When I was young I recall watching the kids in study-hall with their headphones in their ears, working on their homework. I would always wonder if they could really focus while they were mixing their music with their schoolwork. Occasionally I would even judge them because I determined such a feat to be impossible, and jumped to the conclusion I was doing it right, and they were doing it wrong. Jokes on me! Cuz most of those kids are probably doing quite well, maintaining positions garnered from the hardwork in their college years, or holding wage earning jobs within the trade industries. What am I doing? I am running out of money on the second floor of the Inn Stations Hostel across the street from the Hua Lamphong Railway station listening to the Narrow Stairs album, my shirt slung over my shoulder, writing at one of seven round tables upon a concrete porch hosting a bar which looks as if it’s always closed except for when a group of rowdies brings their own booze to really get the party started, here in Bangkok.

I am happy. Tonight is the third night I am spending with a girl I know very well, and if you read this blog you may have come to know well as well. Jo. I am not sure if she is asleep yet, but she might be on the way. We have a train to catch at 08:05, and by 12:38 in the afternoon we will be in a new city. Still Thailand though. We are learning more about each other as we travel together, for better or for worse. How many people have you traveled with? Mark Twain says that’s how he knows if he can really stand to be around an individual or not. He must travel with them. Or at least, once he has traveled with an individual, he learns how compatible him and said individual are. I already know Jo and I are compatible. What I believe we are about to learn as we travel the next 45ish days together, is what we want from ourselves. Life would be easy if two people could just combines their dreams, like two fruits in a blender, and produce an even more delicious juice on the other side. The remnants of both entities still to be enjoyed from the pulp that remains. Life is not the juice. Life is the fruit. We can make many different juices throughout our life, that is the way of our humanity; it is our process. Many years ago we, as a people, realized just how much fucking juice we can make. We can really juice it up. Just keep processing new juice over, and over. We can make juice with things that aren’t even fruit. Bananas and pulverized walnuts. Glass shards and hippo blood. Love and money. But we are reentering an era of naturally squeezed juice. We don’t juice the whole orange at once, and then try to retrieve the pulp later these days.  We overindulge less. We squeeze half the orange and perhaps we save the rest for later.

You can’t have it all. Life is not easy. Did you hear me? Life is not fucking easy. It was never supposed to be. It’s a generational movement as well. Some people you may gaze upon and wonder why it was not you born in their place. Well, you can make it so others gaze upon the life of your offspring in the same way. Do you want that? You can’t have immediate results. but you can have long term satisfaction. If Jo wants to settle into a city and start a job teaching, or go to grad school, and I want to keep traveling the world and become a popular artist, what do we do? How do two people meet in the middle of such complicated agendas? Well…they meet in a kingdom full of fresh fruit and squeeze half an orange. Do you get me? Because I don’t quite understand it yet. The time is 20:53, and I am going to head in now, having done no editing on an article and simply publishing it, because I don’t yet write a travel blog that millions of people are reading and critiquing for errors…what I do is closer to poetry than advice. Take from me what you with, and discard the rind when I am squeezed.

Chris